It's been a rough couple of weeks. At the same time it has been a wonderful couple of weeks. Funny how the good and bad are always entwined like that. We've had some serious loss and some damage to the house. We've gotten to spend extra time with family members and were reminded of how much we enjoy each others' company. We were given a moment to appreciate the people that are with us and remember why relationships matter.
On Saturday I watched Amaya racing around the mats at her gymnastics class and she was grinning from ear to ear. There was no room inside her for anything but laughter and happiness. It made me feel good just to see it. It reminded me that our goal for this year is to find more joy. I want to do things that make me feel so good that there's no room for anything else. We get brief flashes of it from time to time. It's not the same thing as remembering to actively seek it out. Find the joy and everything else will automatically be better.
January 12, 2005